Tuesday, May 24, 2011

The good, bad and ugly

So this is what it feels like to be resurrected from the dusty floor in the land of the lost forgotten and neglected blogs. *cough*

I will not be going into any of the gory details of what brought me here, but here are the highlights of what is new with me.

1. I am separated from my husband
2. I am in a new relationship.
3. I am currently living with my mom until my house sells and I can stop paying for half the mortgage
4. I have gained twenty lbs in the last five months.

How do I feel about all this?

1. Horrible for hurting him, but relieved to be out of a relationship that made me unhappy.
2. Very, very happy...he is a sweet, loving man.
3. Frustrated
4. Completely disgusted with myself.

I started to gain weight soon after all the relationship shit hit the fan. I was mega stressed, super emotional and had no routine whatsoever. I exercised not at all and started eating whatever I wanted. Then my cat got sick and I just had to put her down.

I feel so gross...my clothes fit somewhat, but more and more are to tight. I am about a size 12 now from a 8/10 before. I feel self-conscious and just icky.

I have my exercise bike now, so that's a start. It helped me lose my first forty lbs oh-so long ago.

So I guess what I am saying is my life is very different now, and I am slowly getting my shit back on track.

I hope that those of you who once read my blog, and I once followed are all doing well. I missed you.

Until I blog again...

Tammy Version 2.0


Cory said...

Life has a way of getting in the way. Slowly but surely you will make it. It's just going to take time.
Ok,so.... What are you gonna do about it? What's the plan? Remember the first secret to getting what you want, is knowing what you want. Then take the steps - no excuses, no reasons, no failure.

Miles In Murray said...

Awe, sweetie! Sounds like there is a lot going on with you. I have read your blog for a while, but been more of a lurker. Keep your chin up. We are all here for you!!

Big Clyde said...

Good to hear from you again. Sorry about all of the trouble, but glad that you are back focusing on your health.

(Might be time to change that profile of your's in the "About Me" section).

Tammy said...

Thanks for reading guys! I appreciate it. And Clyde, good call! I have updated my profile.

Troy said...

You can do it (anything you set your mind to). Actually, you always told me that. Glad to see the blog up and ... uh, bloging again!