Friday, May 27, 2011


My good friend Cory, who keeps kicking my lazy ass in gear, has reminded me that we had a weight-loss challenge a while back. Gee, thanks Cory, what are you some kinda friggin' elephant- you never forget anything??

So my challenge is to lose 25 lbs by August. Yargh. This will put me back to my all-time low of 165, which I reached for about five minutes many months ago.

My plan is to reign in the bad eating habits I have fallen back into and get back to regular exercise. I have my bike in my mom's garage, and I think I will keep it there. When the days get warmer, it will be the coolest place to work out. I have also joined a gym in the city my boyfriend, Terry, lives in. He and I must go at least two times a week.

One cool thing is that I have joined Terry's brother's slow-pitch team. They are a very fun bunch to play with, and it gets me moving for a few hrs on Sundays! I love playing ball again. It has been about six years since I have played slow-pitch, and 20 since I played fast-pitch. Wow...I am friggin old. I loved playing ball as a kid, and I was always our clean-up batter. It still is a challenge to hit the slow-moving pitches I get now though. It sucks to not be the batter I once was, but I am trying new things to improve ma skillz. At least I am still doing well on first base!

Wish me luck for my two games on Sunday! Goooooo Guzzlers!

Ok, deep breath, here I go to break through the inertia of laziness...

Tammy Version 2.0

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

The good, bad and ugly

So this is what it feels like to be resurrected from the dusty floor in the land of the lost forgotten and neglected blogs. *cough*

I will not be going into any of the gory details of what brought me here, but here are the highlights of what is new with me.

1. I am separated from my husband
2. I am in a new relationship.
3. I am currently living with my mom until my house sells and I can stop paying for half the mortgage
4. I have gained twenty lbs in the last five months.

How do I feel about all this?

1. Horrible for hurting him, but relieved to be out of a relationship that made me unhappy.
2. Very, very happy...he is a sweet, loving man.
3. Frustrated
4. Completely disgusted with myself.

I started to gain weight soon after all the relationship shit hit the fan. I was mega stressed, super emotional and had no routine whatsoever. I exercised not at all and started eating whatever I wanted. Then my cat got sick and I just had to put her down.

I feel so clothes fit somewhat, but more and more are to tight. I am about a size 12 now from a 8/10 before. I feel self-conscious and just icky.

I have my exercise bike now, so that's a start. It helped me lose my first forty lbs oh-so long ago.

So I guess what I am saying is my life is very different now, and I am slowly getting my shit back on track.

I hope that those of you who once read my blog, and I once followed are all doing well. I missed you.

Until I blog again...

Tammy Version 2.0